Cancer: “Head Over Heart”, Mathai. I’m so done with my old ways, this time I’ll face it head over heart.
Happy birthday, my sweet baby crambs. I hope it is marvelous so far. You get two full moons this month – one on the 1st and one again on the 31st (the blue moon!). Cancer is ruled by the moon – you know this – so expect to feel very powerful but also very tender this month. You are an exercise in contradictions, Cancer. You are capable of being so strong, and so viselike in your grip on things, your defense of yourself and the way that you care, but you are led first and foremost by feelings and sometimes they can get the better of you. Caring is never a weakness, but it can lead to weakness – does that make sense? Don’t be afraid not to care, is what I mean, especially this month but all the time. You don’t owe anyone your love, despite how much it feels that way. It is easy for you to love and because of that you give it unearned, but this month try and think about ruling your heart a little better, guarding yourself a little more.
Leo: “Lanterns Lit”, Son Lux. I’ll break from the weight of my mind… I will labor by singing light. I’ll keep my lanterns lit.
Sometimes your path is so clear, shining bright and welcoming before you; sometimes it’s not. Sometimes you know where you’re going but it’s so far in the distance that it’s almost a mirage, and that is hard for you. You’re so strong, so stubborn, so determined to get what you want, and those are good, valuable things about you. But they make it hard for you to deal with setbacks, with bumps in the road, with anything that forces you to deviate from your plan. This month I want you to try and take your eyes off the distance, Leo. I want you to look at what is under your feet, at what is directly in front of you, around you. Your path is unfolding the way that it should be, and no amount of ignoring your current situation is going to move you forward any faster. I am loath to say “stop and smell the roses”, but I do want you to slow down, to feel your feet on the ground. To measure your steps, to be present in this moment that is your life. Imagine yourself as a lantern – you can’t glow far enough to illuminate your future, as much as you want to. Move forward, and bring the light with you.
Virgo: “Appreciated”, Rixton. Cause it’s you who takes care of everyone else / You need to allow me to help / You are appreciated.
You are very, very nose-to-the-grindstone, in a way that is simultaneously indispensable to everyone around you and also routinely completely unnoticed. You don’t often call attention to the things you do for others, to your incredible work ethic, and that is fine – you thrive best when your efforts aren’t under a spotlight. This month, though, I want you to draw attention to it – your own attention. You work so hard so regularly that I think you think it is less important than it is, less valuable, less deserving of reward. This month I want you to think about the things you have done, the successes that you have had, the work you so relentlessly do, and I want you to take a vacation. Even if it’s a few hours, I want you to relax, to appreciate yourself, to do something that doesn’t have a measurable outcome. Take yourself to the movies; buy yourself a Slurpee. Do something to appreciate yourself – you won’t let anyone else do it, and that’s fine, it’s who you are – but someone should. You’ve earned that.
Libra: “Everybody But Me”, Lykke Li. Though this room is too small I’d rather stand against the wall / And hope that no one sees me.
Charisma and diplomacy go hand in hand, and you have both in spades. You don’t like conflict, which is understandable, but often you bend too far backward to keep it from happening. This month is a month for asking yourself when it is important not to back down, to stand your ground and risk a fight. Compromise is all well and good until it becomes everyone except for you getting everything they want – I know it’s hard for you, I know it seems unfair, but you need to put yourself first. Or at least you need to put yourself somewhere on the list! Any kind of confrontation grates on your nervous soul, I know this, but I need you to try, this month. You are so careful with your battles, with what you choose to engage with, so I don’t need to tell you to be wary. I need to tell you to be brave, and to be gentle with yourself, and to remember that you are part of any real compromise. Remember that fairness includes you.
Scorpio: “Fight Song”, Rachel Platten. And I don’t really care if nobody else believes, ’cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me.
You are a sharp, pointed thing, and people often mistake that for some kind of cruelty, an innate mean streak, as if self-possession and sourness were somehow at all the same thing. But you have this incredible ability to see the good in things, a small voice in the back of your mind that lends you this beautiful optimism, this unvanquishable persistence of being, somehow. Against all odds, in whatever circumstance, you are there picking yourself up, dusting yourself off, making sure your stilettos aren’t scuffed. I hesitated even to call it optimism because it is more practical than that, it is sort of an unwavering calm composure, a quiet but unshakable confidence born of the knowledge of your own competence. This month I want you to remember that, when things feel dire; listen for that small voice when things seem on the verge of breaking you. Remember your belief in yourself. Nothing has broken you yet and nothing will.
Sagittarius: “Home”, Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros. There ain’t nothing that I need. Home is wherever I’m with you.
You are a creature of habit, someone who values consistency and stability and people that can bring those things to your life. Even when everything around you is changing, you keep a sort of security blanket wrapped around yourself, a cocoon of familiarity that sustains you through whatever happens. This next month is going to be one filled with change, with new opportunities and new people, and it’s important that you take time to remind yourself of what “home” means to you; where it is and isn’t. You are so formidable, but you draw strength from the things that comfort you. Keep them close, this month, keep them present, and let them buoy you up when you feel as though you are sinking. You are the sum of many parts, a careful amalgamation of the things you care about; remember this. Remember who you are. You are home.
Capricorn: “1234”, Feist. Oh, you’re changing your heart. Oh, you know who you are.
Go sailing this month, if you can. Situate yourself in the middle of something vast and calm; a field, a forest, a parking lot. The world has shifted and it continues to shift, and you are shifting with it. Take this month to think about your place in your own life, if that makes sense, and how to keep yourself centered. The trappings of your life are important but they are nothing compared to your heart, your feelings, the things you hold dear. No matter where you go you will have these things, and no matter how much you change you will always be yourself. You are a very deep river, Capricorn, and sometimes even you forget how strongly you feel, how much you can care, but this month is the time for you to remember it. You have maybe the most sense of self of any of the signs, but you rarely think to maintain it. This month I want you to indulge it, to think about your feelings clear down to your core. Reassert yourself to yourself.
Aquarius: “Bombastic”, Bonnie McKee. You know I’m playin’ like no more Mr. Nice Guy!
You are very malleable, and this is something I very much consider a skill, a strength. The ability to go with the flow, roll with the punches, is something that very few people have, and no one has it quite the way you do. But. Sometimes you are owed more than the flow; sometimes you deserve to divert whole rivers. I want you to think, this month, about whether you want the things you are given, the things that you continue to accept. And I want you to begin to think about how to ask for the things that you want, and how and when it is appropriate to take them by force. You deserve happiness, and it is often your way to forgo that in favor of the happiness of others, and sometimes not even their happiness, just – just to keep from rocking the boat. To keep things running smoothly. Think about Buffy, this month, think about punching a car so hard it stops moving. Think about what you deserve.
Pisces: “Gotta Work”, Amerie. Sometimes it’s gonna be days like this / Sometimes it’s gonna be rain like this / Sometimes you’re gonna feel pain like this / Sometimes you gotta work hard for it.
A large part of getting by in this world is learning to manage your expectations, to adapt what you expect from yourself and from the world based on what is actually happening to you. You are a dreamer, Pisces, and it is a beautiful and valuable thing, but sometimes you have to break an egg to make an omelet. Sometimes you have to do things you don’t want to. I am never, never saying that you should give up on your dreams – what I mean rather is that you need to value your dreams enough that you are willing to do things that aren’t your dreams, in order to get to them. Am I making sense? You have to have enough faith in yourself to do things that you don’t immediately see the benefit of, and you have to have enough faith in what you want to wait for it, to keep working and waiting and striving. Think about Chutes and Ladders, this month; sometimes all you can do is keep playing the game long enough to win. Everything can be worthwhile if you try to find the worth in it.
Aries: “Me and You”, She & Him. You’ve got to be kind to yourself.
No one expects more of you than you do. This is a gift and a curse on par with Spider-man’s powers. You are capable of doing such incredible things, of pushing past limits that other people don’t even know are there and then pushing further. This is the first edge of the sword, the one that you use to slice your way forward, the one that is a weapon for you. The other edge, the edge that bites into your palm as you swing, is that you are never going to be happy with yourself. You keep raising the bar, gripping that sword tighter, savoring the sting and the heat of your own blood in your palm, and where does it end? Where can it ever end, when your own biggest critic is yourself? This month I want you to look at yourself as objectively as you can; as you would look not at a friend or a lover but as you would look at a stranger. Consider yourself not based on what you expect of yourself but what you expect of the world. There will be a disparity – it’s in your nature – and it’s your job, this month, to figure out how to be kinder to yourself.
Taurus: “Let Me Love You (Until You Learn to Love Yourself)”, Ne-Yo. Much as you blame yourself, you can’t be blamed for the way that you feel.
You are not as hard to love as you think you are, dear one. You are polarizing, sure, and you are stubborn and indefatigable and sometimes infuriatingly logical, but you are not difficult to love, no more than anyone else is. They say you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you, which I think is terrible bullshit, but I do think this: You don’t have to love yourself to accept the truth of the love that others have for you. I know how hard it is not to question someone’s love for you, and I won’t ask you to do that – sometimes that impulse comes from a warning-place, a place that should be listened to. What I am asking you to do this month is to have faith in the people you care about, the ones who love you; whether you agree or not, they see something in you worth loving. Not everyone will love you, but not everyone loves anyone, you can’t change that. But if you allow for the possibility that you are genuinely loved, you open yourself up to the idea that you are lovable. You deserve to at least consider that idea.
Gemini: “Memories”, Eisley. I’m the one who is gone / But there’s beautiful things that spring from these rows / With their musical names and musical sounds.
It is so easy to become bored with life, to slip into a routine that leaves you disenchanted. It is tempting beyond words to draw yourself in, curl up tight within your own soul and examine everything for flaws. Being at peace with yourself, within yourself, is a valuable skill, but if you wrap yourself too tightly you cut yourself off. Self-imposed isolation is healthy only insofar as it lets you gather your strength; when it persists longer than that it becomes a kind of ouroboros. When you’re so tightly focused within yourself, on your unhappiness, on the flatness that seems to pervade your world, you miss the things that the world is trying to present to you – opportunities, people, small birds on your windowsill. If you ignore the world for too long you will lose it, is what I’m saying, and there is so much in it for you. Take this month and try to turn your focus outward, toward the small bright things that flicker in the landscape you find so dull. Once you start looking for them, you’ll find there are more than you’d ever dreamed.